..hunting lessons :P

Its depressing

The never ending hunt for grooms. Its depressing because I haven’t yet viewed a profile that screams “marry me, I am the one for you.”  I thought it will be fun, but after going through numerous profiles I realised why people go for love marriages. There is no fun people. Everyone is so serious, and over age. I’m 22 when I am writing this, and every single interest/ proposal I’ve got so far is 27-28. Looks like rest of the folks decided to find themselves brides without the aid of matrimony site.

And, what I cannot understand is my father’s need to get me hitched off this fast!

Yes, my horoscope says that I have to be married before 24, or wait after 30 (yes we believe in that stuff..!), above that, mine is a sudhajathakam, something difficult to find, and if found difficult to match (discovered dashasanthi recently.. :P), and adding to it even thinking about living off with a complete stranger, doesn't look glamorous at all. Nope, not anymore.

When I was a kid, I used to love marriages, loads of people, loads of goodies, and loads of fanfare. Cousins ragging the to be bride/groom, meaningful looks (none understood then, but now, its a different story :P) passed around, snide comments, general happiness around. And I've had cliched images built up even then in my mind about the marriage(aided by the films and serials mainly), and I couldn't wait to grow up and get married!!

But I didn't expect this sense of insecurity. Its even scary. Every parent is looking for a good homely girl to complete their son’ s life. No one wants a fun loving, slightly eccentric, highly emotional, overly sensitive, in short, a real person for their son. Not that my profile exhibits these characteristics, my profile is ideal one. Any unsuspecting parent will certainly love it, NO, I’m not being fake. I can adjust, trust me I can adjust well enough. It will like killing off existing me, and replacing an impeccable daughter-in-law.

But, I do not want that. Is it too much to ask, to continue like I am now, carefree, talkative, reacting little girl of the family. Couldn’t growing up wait a little more..??? We hear amazing stories about fantastic couples who came together through arranged marriages, all I am asking for is a fairytale, can I get one..?? L

... ink !! ;)

Pretty, isn't it..??
Sadly, it's still on someone else's body..!
I have no idea how exactly my love for tattoos started. No one I know personally has got any yet..! Still, I'm really fascinated by the idea of getting ink on my body.
May be TLC is responsible, they have this show, where we get to see people getting tattooed. Yes, its going to hurt (they also said threading hurts, it was bearable pain only. Nothing worth screaming your head off !! )
Or may be, its the saying "the only thing you can take to your grave is tattoo", I know, I know, tacky.

Anyways, getting inked is on my bucket list. I think this one will look really pretty on my back neck. Or maybe on the safer note, on my arm..(safe as in, from parents. Just to be really really safe, maybe I should wait till after marriage. My father got me to take down half of my interests from my matrimony profile, obviously, people are looking for girls with adakkom othukkam..! Hah!! Long drives, and tattoos obviously makes a girl sound unruly, doesn't they??  )

..a letter to kerala state electricity board

This is the second consecutive day power went off in the morning, and didn’t come back till evening..!  This is so unfair..!!! And in this melting heat too..!

Dear KSEB,

It is with a saddened heart that I am writing this letter. I know that it is summer, and that there is shortage of water. All I am asking is if you people could predict this dire shortage of water, why didn’t you guys do something about it, like maybe finding an alternate source..?

Sun is available all the morning, and heat is on a record rate.  Couldn’t the engineers’ at least try to provide solar energy to some specific region..? Say, for example Government buildings in the capital..? Or, we have plenty of coastal areas, even though it is hard to harness tidal energy, why not try a hand in wind energy..? I heard that in Denmark they have windmills in the sea, literally in the sea, on cement columns and they use wind power to provide for 1/4^th of the country’s power needs. Why not try it out over here..? I’ve read about various ministers and their love for traveling abroad, while you are at it, why don’t you bring back something useful that can be implemented over here..???

And, since the electricity board is so strict about extra consumption of the ordinary people, I’d like to put forward yet another strategy to save energy. Ban political meetings during summer. God only knows how much electricity they use up with all the mike set, loudspeakers, lights and everything. Nothing comes out of it, no visible result, other than most us learning new swear words.

And, dear Government I know that nothing beats experience, but do put in some engineers or innovative minds in the governance team, so that when you guys are so busy eating up the existing resources, and having fun at expense of our tax money, there will be some people to point out to you new fields to exploit, once you are done with exhausting the existing resources. And who knows, us people may get lucky, if some poor soul do come up with plans to make Kerala emerge.

Thanking you,

Yours faithfully,

Soon to be tax paying citizen.

..fish!!

No, this is not the story of any pet fish I had, I am not a pet person actually, get bored with things fast( which means that any fish I have had would have met with a tragic end, probably in some cat's belly..).

This is about my long standing aversion to eating fish, or may be smelling cooked fish, or even seeing raw fishes in the fish markets.

I don't remember how it started, I remember watching my aaya(mother is and was a teacher, so I had personal aaya) cleaning fish. Back then we had fish in our household often enough. I remember sitting on ground next to her, scrutinizing every single detail of gutting the fish, you clean away scales, fins and tail, remove the head,throw it to some crow or cat whichever creature that was present during the ceremony, make a long cut, take out all the innards, throw that too to hungry animals or birds(at regular interval there will be a fight over the piece, they never really got the idea of sharing, or waiting for the next piece, blame the evolution I suppose). She sometimes used to show me the eggs of fishes, and if I remember correctly, I used to eat it, then, way back then.

But somehow, as I grew, the repulsion towards the smell grew, be it raw, cooking, I have a hard time standing the smell. And, since I threw such a fit over it, cooking fish at home became a rare thing (talk about influencing people, I think you can imagine the extend of "fit" I threw ;)).

And, after that I grew up a little more, stopped throwing fits, and the fish came back into the house. But I wouldn't try it, touch it, or even touch the scrubber that had been used to clean the fish dish. And yesterday again, we had fish, so it got me to thinking, why do I hate it so much..! Yes, I am picky eater(that is the single and the only reason why I did not apply to discovery, national geo, tlc channels for hosting those shows where you can travel around the world with a camera person with you, you'd have to sample the local cuisine, I cannot manage the native ones, yet alone the world wide ones :(). I decide whether or not to eat a dish by looking at it, if it doesn't look eatable to me, I will not try it. My mother have tried the line "taste it, then keep away" at me from the time I can remember. But nothing will make me taste it, unless ofcourse it has chicken as main ingredient. Now that I am eligible for getting married off, her favourite line now is "what will you do at your husband's home, they won't let this get by". (The answer to that question is really simple, my future husband's folks, please let me be me. I promise that I will not make you eat anything you don't want to, so please return the courtesy.)

But then again, back to the question, why do I hate it so much? They say you don't need a reason to love something, but when it comes to hating something, you should have a reason. In future, if my husband does turn out to be the fish person, I think I may need to be hypnotized or something, to get me anywhere near fish. Again, but, wouldn't it be easier to give up something than starting something? No, even in writing, that phrase looked weird. mm.. lets hope that my future will be fish free, or maybe I should have a nice counselor's number with me, just in case, any suggestions?

P.S: It's indeed a medical condition. I googled "hate fish". And, weirdly they have fish recipes for people who hate fish..! Seriously, are you kidding me..?!?!?!